I am human, so I am likely to err. I got some news that an ex-friend has had her 3rd child and may be coming to a meeting I help to lead. We haven’t talked in about 4 years, and I have to admit, our falling out was due quite a bit to me opening my mouth before thinking or listening.
I don’t deal well with change, I’ll be the first to admit it. There are a lot of changes going on with all of my volunteer lives and my family’s lives. Lately I’ve been having friends tell me that I’m a good person. I don’t feel like a “good” person. I’ve opened my mouth too many times to my detriment.
I’ve come to realize that I tend to say things when I’m trying to hide what I’m really feeling. Most of the time that’s jealousy. So, instead of beating myself up when I screw up, I’m working to “act” instead of “react” to situations. It may be a very long work-in-progress…